not gonna lie this song is kind of autobiographical for me.......
anywayz WHOO im havin some trouble keepin up with mah journal entries lately just cause my life is so BORINGGG. in fact its kind of a shitshow at this point. hmmmm lets see its currently raining outside....i keep track of the precipitation level in a bucket in my backyard, its rained 3 feet since 4am this morning. SIKE but seriously im SICK OF IT.
im ready for some heat. like upper 90s would be preferable.
earlier: lunch at volunteer park cafe with leah and louisa. nutella strawberry panini and hazelnut chevre salad.
later: international student supplement for UBC.
later than that: degrassi, america's next top model, mystery diagnosis.
now: bloggin. bout to clean BIG TIME. i want to cleanse my soul/physical space of all material possessions.
later than now: gym. b&o with stephanie and lizzie. im wanting/needing some coffee and they have those valencia lattes.
K MY LIFE IS MONOTONOUS. tv, homework, food, weather, this is all so basic.
you see why stephanie and i exagerrated on our journal entries last year mr hawk????
Thursday, April 2, 2009
fashion mistakes i have made in the past:
-blue eyeliner
-hot pink and navy striped arm warmers
-eyebrow piercing
-dark burgundy eggplant almost black hair that was supposed to be red
-a lavender diesel vest that i paid almost 200 dollars for and wore twice
-a braided embroidery floss necklace with a pop can tab that came off on "d", for deryck whibley from sum41
-jeans with lyrics written on them in black sharpie
-a "brunettes have more fun" tshirt
-a black and white l.a.m.b. jacket that my mom paid almost 300 dollars for on my birthday, i couldnt pull it off, and still cant, but i wear it sometimes just because i feel so guilty
-a white diesel puffy coat that my mom paid almost 300 dollars for at christmas. by january the sleeves were covered with black smudges from resting my arms on the desks at school
-a cut off denim skirt over leggings
-a pink off the shoulder abercrombie shirt with a stretchy black knee length skirt and white plastic old navy flip flops. i wore this outfit to the bal harbour shops in miami where my mom paid almost 200 dollars for a sleeveless watermelon lacoste polo dress that was 2 sizes too big and i wore twice
-an eastern washington university letterman jacket that my sister found at red light
-one of those fake like 1978 world tour ramones tshirts from urban outfitters
-countless others
-blue eyeliner
-hot pink and navy striped arm warmers
-eyebrow piercing
-dark burgundy eggplant almost black hair that was supposed to be red
-a lavender diesel vest that i paid almost 200 dollars for and wore twice
-a braided embroidery floss necklace with a pop can tab that came off on "d", for deryck whibley from sum41
-jeans with lyrics written on them in black sharpie
-a "brunettes have more fun" tshirt
-a black and white l.a.m.b. jacket that my mom paid almost 300 dollars for on my birthday, i couldnt pull it off, and still cant, but i wear it sometimes just because i feel so guilty
-a white diesel puffy coat that my mom paid almost 300 dollars for at christmas. by january the sleeves were covered with black smudges from resting my arms on the desks at school
-a cut off denim skirt over leggings
-a pink off the shoulder abercrombie shirt with a stretchy black knee length skirt and white plastic old navy flip flops. i wore this outfit to the bal harbour shops in miami where my mom paid almost 200 dollars for a sleeveless watermelon lacoste polo dress that was 2 sizes too big and i wore twice
-an eastern washington university letterman jacket that my sister found at red light
-one of those fake like 1978 world tour ramones tshirts from urban outfitters
-countless others
you do what you do so well if you can't dance i can't tell
BANGS THAT COVER HALF YOUR FOREHEAD SHOULD BE BANNED FOREVERRRRRRRRRRR. i could single out some unsuspecting girl whose picture is on the first page of my google image search but this is kinder:
http://www.zipporahvaldez.com/images/customdolls/23browneyesshortbangs.jpg
poor american girl doll with the short bangs those are hella ugly.
http://www.zipporahvaldez.com/images/customdolls/23browneyesshortbangs.jpg
poor american girl doll with the short bangs those are hella ugly.
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
WHAT THA TRUCK. a bit confused about this water thing. wondering if it's really doing any good, because it's consumed and that's great, but then it leaves me. and i want it to come back.
at first you think that peeing every 30 seconds is a sacrifice youre willing to make in the name of hydration but eventually its just a nuisance. honestly.
back to the alcohol/water thing...im really seeing minimal differences between the two because drinking excessive amounts of water is healthier, you could argue, but definitely just as incapacitating.
in other news: theres this guy that works out at my gym and he wears these red adidas pants that i really want. not like ugly dark red or orangey red but like fire truck red. its electrifying and i want a pair. i think i just found them on the website...... oh btw the guy is kinda hot even though he's pretty old. he has a bunch of tats all over and hes still rockin them at whatever age. love it.
in more other news: im planning on transfering to u of chicago after some amount of time at wherever, not because i want to join the "weird hipster intellectuals", but because i love the city and it's calling my name.
HEY CUTE http://www.havaianasus.com/womens-sandals/brazil-flag.html?s=9497
the brazilian flag is a mark of genius. the colors are great.
whoa i'm reading about it and not gonna lie, up until this point i thought it was a planet. with rings, like saturn. it's actually a night sky, the stars over rio on november 15, 1889, and a banner. i guess i was on the right track though.
at first you think that peeing every 30 seconds is a sacrifice youre willing to make in the name of hydration but eventually its just a nuisance. honestly.
back to the alcohol/water thing...im really seeing minimal differences between the two because drinking excessive amounts of water is healthier, you could argue, but definitely just as incapacitating.
in other news: theres this guy that works out at my gym and he wears these red adidas pants that i really want. not like ugly dark red or orangey red but like fire truck red. its electrifying and i want a pair. i think i just found them on the website...... oh btw the guy is kinda hot even though he's pretty old. he has a bunch of tats all over and hes still rockin them at whatever age. love it.
in more other news: im planning on transfering to u of chicago after some amount of time at wherever, not because i want to join the "weird hipster intellectuals", but because i love the city and it's calling my name.
HEY CUTE http://www.havaianasus.com/womens-sandals/brazil-flag.html?s=9497
the brazilian flag is a mark of genius. the colors are great.
whoa i'm reading about it and not gonna lie, up until this point i thought it was a planet. with rings, like saturn. it's actually a night sky, the stars over rio on november 15, 1889, and a banner. i guess i was on the right track though.
Friday, March 13, 2009
celebration
so i got a twitter which is the dumbest shit for anybody to use unless youre hella famous. i follow mark hoppus, gwen stefani, and michael k. gwen stefani doesnt say anything in fact its prob just like her agent or sum shit. michael k talks about celebs DUH. and mark hoppus actually updates like every 2 minutes, which is great cause now i can keep tabs on his relationship i.e. is it failing. or just his whereabouts i.e. where does he eat breakfast every day cause i'll be there.
so i'm doing this new thing where i drink hella water. i now have to pee like every 5 minutes which is no biggie when i'm sittin at home but i can think of a few situations where that could make things complicated. whateva, not gonna stress. anyway, this online calculator told me i need to be drinking 86 ounces per day. not really tryin to figure out how much that is in cups but its a lot. so my question is this: does beer count. i mean light beer tastes like water....so its like water that gets you drunk, right? i mean if you drink enough of it that is. 86 ounces should suffice.
Friday, March 6, 2009
summerboy
so im sick, which kind of came out of left field considering im usually the picture of good health. mercury must be in retrograde. that would explain a lot thats been going on lately actually......life, love, fame, obsession, denial....you get the picture.
anyway. i think i had a fever and i know this because last night i dreamed that stephanie was an animal. and not a normal animal either, she was kind of blue and round...i think i made it up. things get crazy when the temperatures go up, you know how it is.
anyway have you been keeping up with degrassi, mr hawk? if not, here's an update: holly j indirectly caused johnny to break up with alli (basically cause shes a freshman and hes a senior, so thats a little awkward) and alli was pretty heated so she made this facerange (facebook, essentially) group called "i hate holly j". 300 people joined and alli was like "I WANT TO STRANGLE HER WITH MY BARE HANDS" and so holly j got pretty upset and was like "i'm calling the cops. i'm not coming back to degrassi. nothing will ever be the same." DRAMA. i'd say alli overreacted, just because johnny is pretty weird looking. he needs to embrace the razor, as they say.
anyway. i think i had a fever and i know this because last night i dreamed that stephanie was an animal. and not a normal animal either, she was kind of blue and round...i think i made it up. things get crazy when the temperatures go up, you know how it is.
anyway have you been keeping up with degrassi, mr hawk? if not, here's an update: holly j indirectly caused johnny to break up with alli (basically cause shes a freshman and hes a senior, so thats a little awkward) and alli was pretty heated so she made this facerange (facebook, essentially) group called "i hate holly j". 300 people joined and alli was like "I WANT TO STRANGLE HER WITH MY BARE HANDS" and so holly j got pretty upset and was like "i'm calling the cops. i'm not coming back to degrassi. nothing will ever be the same." DRAMA. i'd say alli overreacted, just because johnny is pretty weird looking. he needs to embrace the razor, as they say.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
never let you go
just saw slumdog millionaire! perfect. everything i want in a movie
lets go to india, im actually down.
oh btw mr hawk i dont know if maybe youve noticed a little change in the way my journal entries are going?? like as in, im writing about true to life experiences, exactly as they happen. i mean, im not gonna go right out and say that all the shit that happened last year was lies, but there is the possibility that i may have exaggerated a little on some things. you feel me? im sure you can understand. i was really just letting loose with my creativity. i mean this is a drama class, what do you expect?
anyway, all that said, everything i wrote last year was 100% factual.
lets go to india, im actually down.
oh btw mr hawk i dont know if maybe youve noticed a little change in the way my journal entries are going?? like as in, im writing about true to life experiences, exactly as they happen. i mean, im not gonna go right out and say that all the shit that happened last year was lies, but there is the possibility that i may have exaggerated a little on some things. you feel me? im sure you can understand. i was really just letting loose with my creativity. i mean this is a drama class, what do you expect?
anyway, all that said, everything i wrote last year was 100% factual.
bibo no aozora
this song is beautiful, and such a good movie.
damn its march 3rd already? ive been writing march 2nd all day. oh well, time is just an illusion anyway.
new obsession: couchsurfing.com
you just fill out a profile and people let you sleep at their houses! steph and i have been checkin it out, theres some seriously chill people on there.
damn its march 3rd already? ive been writing march 2nd all day. oh well, time is just an illusion anyway.
new obsession: couchsurfing.com
you just fill out a profile and people let you sleep at their houses! steph and i have been checkin it out, theres some seriously chill people on there.
volcano girls
remember volcano girls by veruca salt mr hawk? prob not. theyve def got that lame chick band thing going on, but its actually kind of an intense song. i used to like it back when i thought i was BA. these days i dont think it, i know it.
anyway, things i want to do:
1. be in hawaii. maui, kauai, north shore oahu, im down for whatever. just get me to the islands.
2. audition for the bad girls club. you think im kidding, but im not.
3. go snowboarding. steph and i are hittin up whistler this weekend actually, but thats not until sunday aka 4 days from now. i guess we'll just see if i make it til then.
4. listen to "the glory" by kanye west until i cant take it anymore. what a gem. whats up with that guy anyway? i heard he wants to focus on designing or some shiz. whatev, he cant rap anymore anyway.
5. be on that game show chain reaction. have you seen the host? hes pretty cute.
6. be in a dance crew. this could prove difficult for many reasons.
7. marry mark hoppus. in order to do this i must a) sabotage his current relationship, b)....well actually im pretty sure things would just fall into place from there.
anyway, things i want to do:
1. be in hawaii. maui, kauai, north shore oahu, im down for whatever. just get me to the islands.
2. audition for the bad girls club. you think im kidding, but im not.
3. go snowboarding. steph and i are hittin up whistler this weekend actually, but thats not until sunday aka 4 days from now. i guess we'll just see if i make it til then.
4. listen to "the glory" by kanye west until i cant take it anymore. what a gem. whats up with that guy anyway? i heard he wants to focus on designing or some shiz. whatev, he cant rap anymore anyway.
5. be on that game show chain reaction. have you seen the host? hes pretty cute.
6. be in a dance crew. this could prove difficult for many reasons.
7. marry mark hoppus. in order to do this i must a) sabotage his current relationship, b)....well actually im pretty sure things would just fall into place from there.
escape
time for some word association:
blanket-warmth-maui-withdrawal-drugs-annabel dickson-mr g-celine-celine dion-lucas-douche-greg from bad girls club-amber b-shoes-boots-snowboarding-mt baker-money-job. ok this is gettin hella depressing.
blanket-warmth-maui-withdrawal-drugs-annabel dickson-mr g-celine-celine dion-lucas-douche-greg from bad girls club-amber b-shoes-boots-snowboarding-mt baker-money-job. ok this is gettin hella depressing.
sugarland
i'm currently sitting in front of stephanies tv watching emile hirsch and ryan donowho engage in inappropriate corporal contact under a coiled rubber snake hanging from the ceiling. jealous?
kidding about the corporal contact, it was just a kiss. it was pretty hot though not gonna lie.
emile hirsch is my ideal man. i heard hes dating some trendy bitch though. if hes gonna be with chicks like that he might as well just do the gay thing for real. i'd be willing to accept that as, realistically, i will probably never meet him in person. maybe some texting is in order? lol kidding. dont have his number. im sure famous people arent down with shit like that anyway.
kidding about the corporal contact, it was just a kiss. it was pretty hot though not gonna lie.
emile hirsch is my ideal man. i heard hes dating some trendy bitch though. if hes gonna be with chicks like that he might as well just do the gay thing for real. i'd be willing to accept that as, realistically, i will probably never meet him in person. maybe some texting is in order? lol kidding. dont have his number. im sure famous people arent down with shit like that anyway.
homecoming
is there anything to write about right now? correct answer: no.
steph and i are planning some mischief for this weekend. its up in the air right now but were considering heading up to bham and tp'ing lucas's house. or forking his lawn. or slashing his tires. is that a misdemeanor? whatever. the way i see it, the law is only the law if you get caught breaking it.
steph and i are planning some mischief for this weekend. its up in the air right now but were considering heading up to bham and tp'ing lucas's house. or forking his lawn. or slashing his tires. is that a misdemeanor? whatever. the way i see it, the law is only the law if you get caught breaking it.
fantasy remix
what the truck am i doing here??
i should be in maui. i hate my classes.
whatev its all good. i'll just wait til we get back to the islands.
btw i forgot to tell you that we texted luke again after that beef. i was like "ok we'll prob run into each other sometime, but until then you can work on your self confidence a little". too harsh or no?
i should be in maui. i hate my classes.
whatev its all good. i'll just wait til we get back to the islands.
btw i forgot to tell you that we texted luke again after that beef. i was like "ok we'll prob run into each other sometime, but until then you can work on your self confidence a little". too harsh or no?
better days
oh damn. SHIZ. so much to tell you.
1. we got bumped!! thats right, anotha night on the island. we got posted up at the grand wailea. likeeeee 800$/night rooms, and those are the cheap ones. whats up with this place? im not really feelin the vibes. there's hella "rich yuppies".
2. speaking of luke, i texted him yesterday b/c he didnt get back to us about riding at baker...i was like "u down" and he was like "no. leave me alone."
once again, FUX!!!! i might as well just kill myself and be spared this misery. you were right mr hawk. we pushed and he ran......like a rabbit!!
he's so NOT chill! what a fucking fake.
okay but at the same time we want to be friends with him so....
mr hawk, what would you do in my position?
1. we got bumped!! thats right, anotha night on the island. we got posted up at the grand wailea. likeeeee 800$/night rooms, and those are the cheap ones. whats up with this place? im not really feelin the vibes. there's hella "rich yuppies".
2. speaking of luke, i texted him yesterday b/c he didnt get back to us about riding at baker...i was like "u down" and he was like "no. leave me alone."
once again, FUX!!!! i might as well just kill myself and be spared this misery. you were right mr hawk. we pushed and he ran......like a rabbit!!
he's so NOT chill! what a fucking fake.
okay but at the same time we want to be friends with him so....
mr hawk, what would you do in my position?
suffragette city
fuxxxxxxxxxxxxx its our last day. we did a little shopping in lahaina with sophie. im still wanting that maui built snowboard. now we're in the airport. we're on the "please bump us" list, but i doubt we'll get lucky.
sweet honey
okay so last night steph and i stopped by this little bonfire thing at makena beach, which was cool until i set down my phone and some dude jacked it. yikessss. he drunk dialed a bunch of people from my "recently called" list. when he gave it back he said some guy was hella pissed. lucas was the only guy on the list so..... whatever, he can be chill about it or not, its up to him.
you cant blame it on anybody
okay so we wrote luke a postcard, but had to ask for his address.
anyway he also asked why i'm "so intent on knowing him". what the hell? this is confusing for multiple reasons. i mean, if i were in his position, i would totally dig someone being so interested in getting to know me. i wouldnt be like suspicious/weirded out. so i'm thinking he has some self esteem issues? i dunno....thoughts??
anyway he also asked why i'm "so intent on knowing him". what the hell? this is confusing for multiple reasons. i mean, if i were in his position, i would totally dig someone being so interested in getting to know me. i wouldnt be like suspicious/weirded out. so i'm thinking he has some self esteem issues? i dunno....thoughts??
ojos asi
so upon our arrival in maui, steph and i hit up kam 1 (duh). the same beach, almost exactly the same time last year........was the 1st time we texted lucas!! so i brought it up with him...no reply. then we were like "why do you take everything so seriously?" works like a charm, everytime. anyway he admitted that we're pretty funny, which is great. we talked a lil about hawaii.....basically we're on hella good terms now.
i need a girl part 1
okay we're officially in the car and on the way to portland. my skin is dying to be i nthe sun. i'm a total ghost lately.
stranger
new experience: i paid fucking 2.19 for a cup of tea at verite. thats the price for a BOX of tea at the store. you do the math.
king of disco
still no word from luke. whats his deal?? men are sooooooo confusing.
new experience: went to a ghs basketball game. peyton was there!! he's so hot
new experience: went to a ghs basketball game. peyton was there!! he's so hot
paper planes
maui in t-minus 5 days. i'm so effing stoked its unreal. ready to relax on the beach for a week.
new experience: went to the gym after dance. went quite well
new experience: went to the gym after dance. went quite well
we fit together
so last night steph and i were going a little webcam-crazy, in the cleanest sense of the word, on facebook. we hit up lucas and posted a vid. nothing too out of line. we just sat there with some kaskade playing in the background. really chill. i was trying really hard not to laugh, so i ended up looking hella intense. he hasnt mentioned it, or replied to my wall post!!! i dont really know what to think at this point.
what makes me feel safe: hot tea, esp. earl grey
what makes me feel safe: hot tea, esp. earl grey
lights and music
so we're not going up to baker actually. people are bailing and theres the driving issue. without louisa's "sweet ass car" aka the rover, we're kind of SOL. i'm not too distressed though; for everything there is a season
what makes me feel safe: locks and keys
what makes me feel safe: locks and keys
fearless
so we're trying to hit up mt baker again this weekend. banked slalom? im so down. louisa's gonna be competing, so we figured we should be there for moral support. finals are on sunday and you know theres no way she wont make it that far, so we'll just roll up there for the day. stoked! we're letting axel come with us this time.
what makes me feel safe: scarves
what makes me feel safe: scarves
holdin on
i dont know whats up with me lately. i dont think i've turned in a single homework assignment since the semester started. my life is a downward spiral.
what makes me feel safe: blankets
what makes me feel safe: blankets
hurt me soul
stewart, what makes me feel safe is knowing that i have role models like you to look up to and ask for advice. so my question is this: on the subject of lucas, where do i go from here? he essentially ignores me these days. should i really just give up and move on? i dont know if i can do that. its not like i havent tried before. i think im just going to be chill about the situation. playing it cool is always the best way to go. plus theres plenty of other men in my life right now. i'm far from desperate.
fu-gee-la
yesterday was intense, no joke. we were shredding baker and i took this sketchy run that led to the middle of nowhere (hotsaplots) and there was no way to go but off this cliff into the canyon. i was a little nervous just cause i havent been boarding as much as i'd like to this season but i just had to go for it. it was no biggie but my landing was a little shoddy. anyway then we went back up and i was totally thrown off/embarrassing myself all over the place so i bailed and went to go chill with steph in the lodge. when we saw this dude from last night that steph was diggin we talked to him for awhile. then we saw this other guy from the ch and he was pretty cute so i got his number.
anyway im pretty bummed i didnt see lucas while i was up there. i feel like our relationship is slowly fading. thoughts, mr hawk?
anyway im pretty bummed i didnt see lucas while i was up there. i feel like our relationship is slowly fading. thoughts, mr hawk?
hurt you
so last night me and louisa went to the only grocery store in glacier to pick up some advil for steph and these dudes in the car next to us were pretty obviously feelin us so we talked to them a little and they were on their way to clubhouse at the place we were staying. i dont know why they were gonna use the sauna or some shit. whatever anyway, we were roasting a chicken back at the condo and stuff but after a while we decided to go check out the movies at the ch. the selection was lacking, but it was whatever cause the dudes from the store were there with some cuties....sike they werent that cute. ok a couple were semi cute. whatever its irrelevant.
anyway we shot some pool and chatted....then they wanted us to meet them at some bar in town. so at like 10:35 (fashionably late) we headed over there and chilled with like 4 of the guys for a while. then they wanted us to come back to their place. some of the girls aka louisa were kind of sketched but steph and i are always down for whatever and lizzie's pretty spontaneous after her international adventures last summer. anyway so we went over thre and things got hella crazy but dont worry i was 100% in control the whole time. the night took a major turn for the worse when 2 of the guys wouldnt let us leave without them. i was like hella i know we're pretty and shiz but lay off! eventually we had to give in cause they were pretty belligerent and we werent about to stand there and argue all night. anyway it was nast cause i had to sit on this dude's lap and he was like all up on me. but dont worry you know im ready to use physical force to defend myself if necessary. when we got to the cabin they wanted to hit up the hot tub but i wasnt about to let my ladies participate in their drunken state so we just let the guys soak for like 20 mins. anyway then they wouldnt leave for like half an hour. it was like 2:30 at that point and we were tryin to get some sleep so it was hellss annoying but finally we sent them on their way with the rest of the chicken. one of the guys left his boxers. im wearing them right now.
anyway we shot some pool and chatted....then they wanted us to meet them at some bar in town. so at like 10:35 (fashionably late) we headed over there and chilled with like 4 of the guys for a while. then they wanted us to come back to their place. some of the girls aka louisa were kind of sketched but steph and i are always down for whatever and lizzie's pretty spontaneous after her international adventures last summer. anyway so we went over thre and things got hella crazy but dont worry i was 100% in control the whole time. the night took a major turn for the worse when 2 of the guys wouldnt let us leave without them. i was like hella i know we're pretty and shiz but lay off! eventually we had to give in cause they were pretty belligerent and we werent about to stand there and argue all night. anyway it was nast cause i had to sit on this dude's lap and he was like all up on me. but dont worry you know im ready to use physical force to defend myself if necessary. when we got to the cabin they wanted to hit up the hot tub but i wasnt about to let my ladies participate in their drunken state so we just let the guys soak for like 20 mins. anyway then they wouldnt leave for like half an hour. it was like 2:30 at that point and we were tryin to get some sleep so it was hellss annoying but finally we sent them on their way with the rest of the chicken. one of the guys left his boxers. im wearing them right now.
theo theo
this cabin is tha shiz. im so lovin it. last night got wild and crazy, as can be expected. the scenery is beautiful. our hot tub is to die for. good friends, good times. what more could you want? i seriously considered calling lucas but i dunno, maybe its too soon...............
hella good
so me, lou, liz, and steph are hittin up mt baker this weekend and im totally stoked. axel wont be joining us, which is kind of a bummer. i was looking forward to getting him really drunk and unlocking his soul. actually i can think of quite a few men i'd like to do that to.
anyway, going up to bham presents the possibility of potential drama with lucas. i've been kind of under the radar lately but i just might decide to pop up out of nowhere, you know? could throw him off balance a little, but its all good. he'll be down to kick it i'm sure.
anyway, going up to bham presents the possibility of potential drama with lucas. i've been kind of under the radar lately but i just might decide to pop up out of nowhere, you know? could throw him off balance a little, but its all good. he'll be down to kick it i'm sure.
peaches and cream
hey mr hawk!! i'm back in the saddle and it feels great. we had to jump through some hoops to get in this class, but mr courtney generally had our back. i've just felt like something is missing from my life andi finally realized what it was...the theatre arts!! duh. that should have been obvious from the beginning.
some facts about me (its been awhile)
name: flora
grade: 12
fav colors: pink, silver, gold
fav class: ap calculus (BC)
fav food: rainier beer
fav band: blink 182
hobbies: party, snowboard
siblings? yes, lucia (22), benji (28), joel (28)
no, they do not attend ghs.
where i live: QA
who with: kinda between residences right now...
inspirations: mark hoppus, kelly slater, eleanor roosevelt
theatrical experience? yes, a lot
after high school i plan on furthering my snowboarding career, marrying rich, etc
fav qualities about myself:
1. my good looks
2. my acting abilities
3. my inteligence
4. my charm
5. my ability to hypnotize any man into loving me
some facts about me (its been awhile)
name: flora
grade: 12
fav colors: pink, silver, gold
fav class: ap calculus (BC)
fav food: rainier beer
fav band: blink 182
hobbies: party, snowboard
siblings? yes, lucia (22), benji (28), joel (28)
no, they do not attend ghs.
where i live: QA
who with: kinda between residences right now...
inspirations: mark hoppus, kelly slater, eleanor roosevelt
theatrical experience? yes, a lot
after high school i plan on furthering my snowboarding career, marrying rich, etc
fav qualities about myself:
1. my good looks
2. my acting abilities
3. my inteligence
4. my charm
5. my ability to hypnotize any man into loving me
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
if i could find that heina and that sancho that she'd found
ive got like 10 finals tomorrow. its casual though, im not too worried about my gpa right now. ive got other stuff on my mind, you know?
Monday, January 19, 2009
life is a highway
this song speaks the truth. life is a journey not a destination.
anyway hella shiz went down at the waltz last night. ive been brushing up on my technique during the last few weeks so i was really excited to show my stuff on the dance floor. unfortunately i have a little stage fright, which is nbd but i usually just need a little push to get going so i had to hit up my old friend jack daniels if you feel me. anyway after a while i was feelin good and ready to get out there and break it down for everybody cause i'll tell you right now, there is a serious lack of skill demonstrated at these things. anyway so im standing on the sidelines, trying to look kind of wistful like i want a dance partner, but not desperate. its a fine line. anyway i got asked by a few guys but i wasnt really feelin it/pretty sure they just felt sorry for me. finally this one guy grabbed my hand and he didnt even have to say anything, i was totally down. anyway so we're out there, twirling stepping whatever you do when you're waltzing, and i started getting a little dizzy. next thing you know i'm falling through the air, grabbing at peoples' skirts and shiz, then i faceplant. i couldnt be more embarrassed, diary. the orchestra stopped played, mr tsutakawa parts the waters like moses and there i am on the floor lookin like a total dbag. i think i passed out after that, not really sure though.
headin up to baker in a couple weeks, 100% stoked for that.
anyway hella shiz went down at the waltz last night. ive been brushing up on my technique during the last few weeks so i was really excited to show my stuff on the dance floor. unfortunately i have a little stage fright, which is nbd but i usually just need a little push to get going so i had to hit up my old friend jack daniels if you feel me. anyway after a while i was feelin good and ready to get out there and break it down for everybody cause i'll tell you right now, there is a serious lack of skill demonstrated at these things. anyway so im standing on the sidelines, trying to look kind of wistful like i want a dance partner, but not desperate. its a fine line. anyway i got asked by a few guys but i wasnt really feelin it/pretty sure they just felt sorry for me. finally this one guy grabbed my hand and he didnt even have to say anything, i was totally down. anyway so we're out there, twirling stepping whatever you do when you're waltzing, and i started getting a little dizzy. next thing you know i'm falling through the air, grabbing at peoples' skirts and shiz, then i faceplant. i couldnt be more embarrassed, diary. the orchestra stopped played, mr tsutakawa parts the waters like moses and there i am on the floor lookin like a total dbag. i think i passed out after that, not really sure though.
headin up to baker in a couple weeks, 100% stoked for that.
Thursday, January 15, 2009
better in time
so im trying really hard to get my shit together but right now im working on this term paper....its almost midnight and i dont even have a full paragraph
my plan right now is as follows:
1. paraphrase entire wikipedia article
2. select points and analyze
3. throw in a few key terms from the textbook
maybe im just distracted...after last year's debacle the word "term paper" has a whole new meaning for me. oh well so it goes
i saw mr hawk today in the auditorium, his usual stomping grounds. he didnt say hi, i think hes a little pissed that i havent shown as much of an interest in the theatre arts this year
hating school so much right now i just need a break from this shit show
my plan right now is as follows:
1. paraphrase entire wikipedia article
2. select points and analyze
3. throw in a few key terms from the textbook
maybe im just distracted...after last year's debacle the word "term paper" has a whole new meaning for me. oh well so it goes
i saw mr hawk today in the auditorium, his usual stomping grounds. he didnt say hi, i think hes a little pissed that i havent shown as much of an interest in the theatre arts this year
hating school so much right now i just need a break from this shit show
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
december 1963 (oh what a night!)
dear diary,
is today the last time we turn in journals? is this the last journal entry that will grace these pages? stewart, you've been with me through thick and thin, through the best of times and the worst of times.
i've been looking at my old entries...all that crazy shit with shaun, eli, kevin, lucas...all the dumb stuff me and steph did...my depression and rebellion. this has truly been a journey of self discovery, and i think i've come out of it a more mature, responsible person. in case you're interested, here are my plans for next year:
-possibly drop out of school
-go on tour with my brothers
-focus on my acting career
-take my surfing career to the next level.
i'm turning my life around, stewart. wish me luck!!
xoxo, flora
is today the last time we turn in journals? is this the last journal entry that will grace these pages? stewart, you've been with me through thick and thin, through the best of times and the worst of times.
i've been looking at my old entries...all that crazy shit with shaun, eli, kevin, lucas...all the dumb stuff me and steph did...my depression and rebellion. this has truly been a journey of self discovery, and i think i've come out of it a more mature, responsible person. in case you're interested, here are my plans for next year:
-possibly drop out of school
-go on tour with my brothers
-focus on my acting career
-take my surfing career to the next level.
i'm turning my life around, stewart. wish me luck!!
xoxo, flora
here's to the night
dear diary,
today, a tragedy occured. louisa went into labor and ryan sheckler jr was born, 5 months premature. i was in the delivery room. it was crazy, we looked down and saw he had a birthmark on his left leg-IN THE SHAPE OF A SKATEBOARD. crazy, i know. anyway, the poor thing was pronounced dead at 10:33 am.
anyway these crazy pictures of ryan sr. partying with jesse mccartney showed up on the web so i guess he's not too distressed by the situation...
today, a tragedy occured. louisa went into labor and ryan sheckler jr was born, 5 months premature. i was in the delivery room. it was crazy, we looked down and saw he had a birthmark on his left leg-IN THE SHAPE OF A SKATEBOARD. crazy, i know. anyway, the poor thing was pronounced dead at 10:33 am.
anyway these crazy pictures of ryan sr. partying with jesse mccartney showed up on the web so i guess he's not too distressed by the situation...
clumsy
dear diary,
there's gotta be more to life. i feel my passion for the theatre arts slowly waning. the people in this class are bringing me down. elitism, rampant snitchery. whatever happened to rebelling against authority? there are some serious suckups infiltrating this classroom.
xoxo, flora
ps. i'm starting to feel like mr hawk is trying to stifle my creativity.
there's gotta be more to life. i feel my passion for the theatre arts slowly waning. the people in this class are bringing me down. elitism, rampant snitchery. whatever happened to rebelling against authority? there are some serious suckups infiltrating this classroom.
xoxo, flora
ps. i'm starting to feel like mr hawk is trying to stifle my creativity.
american boy
dear diary,
OMG!! last night was total insanity. basically, we were at blu water and spotted this total hottie at the bar. we were all feelin him so we sent him stephanie's digits via the bus boy, just as he was about to leave. he texted us and things went from there.
then, the unthinkable happened. he came back to the restaurant! i decided he wasnt actually that hot but he was clearly expecting a follow-up to the conversation, and i'm not one to let people down. he took me for a spin on his motorcycle, which was a total blast. i had to end things before they got too crazy. he was pretty disappointed. oh well, such is life.
OMG!! last night was total insanity. basically, we were at blu water and spotted this total hottie at the bar. we were all feelin him so we sent him stephanie's digits via the bus boy, just as he was about to leave. he texted us and things went from there.
then, the unthinkable happened. he came back to the restaurant! i decided he wasnt actually that hot but he was clearly expecting a follow-up to the conversation, and i'm not one to let people down. he took me for a spin on his motorcycle, which was a total blast. i had to end things before they got too crazy. he was pretty disappointed. oh well, such is life.
calabria 2007
dear diary,
OMG! lucas called me today. i wasnt there to answer, but i called back. i guess we're just playing phone tag! clearly he's wanting to throw himself at my feet and beg for forgiveness. that can be arranged, but i think i'll make him suffer a little first.
OMG! lucas called me today. i wasnt there to answer, but i called back. i guess we're just playing phone tag! clearly he's wanting to throw himself at my feet and beg for forgiveness. that can be arranged, but i think i'll make him suffer a little first.
goodbye earl
dear diary,
so i've been thinking a lot about lucas lately. i dont even know why. i mean, i only met him that one time and you know what they say about alcohol impairing your judgement. he could be a rapist, a serial killer, or even worse, an undercover cop.
things we know:
age, sex, location.
he parties a lot.
he's kind of a hater.
things we don't know:
level of attractiveness (you would assume he's a hottie considering how concerned he was with my looks, but this is one fatal flaw of a large percentage of the male population: they think they're entitled to a good looking woman even if they themselves are completely hideous).
life story (full).
what else do you need to know about a person?
basically the man is a complete mystery to me. but at least i acknowledge that. SOME people just think they have everybody all figured out.
so i've been thinking a lot about lucas lately. i dont even know why. i mean, i only met him that one time and you know what they say about alcohol impairing your judgement. he could be a rapist, a serial killer, or even worse, an undercover cop.
things we know:
age, sex, location.
he parties a lot.
he's kind of a hater.
things we don't know:
level of attractiveness (you would assume he's a hottie considering how concerned he was with my looks, but this is one fatal flaw of a large percentage of the male population: they think they're entitled to a good looking woman even if they themselves are completely hideous).
life story (full).
what else do you need to know about a person?
basically the man is a complete mystery to me. but at least i acknowledge that. SOME people just think they have everybody all figured out.
the light
dear diary,
not much going on today.
i went to confession, but to be honest i left a few things out.
not much going on today.
i went to confession, but to be honest i left a few things out.
drivin me wild
dear diary,
my hand is killing me lately. reason #17 why school is completely bogus. i just feel like theres so much more to be learned out of school. we're all just casualties of society in here, you know?
my hand is killing me lately. reason #17 why school is completely bogus. i just feel like theres so much more to be learned out of school. we're all just casualties of society in here, you know?
caramel
dear diary,
oh my god. too much drama. basically lucas proved himself to be 100% asshole last night.
i'm minding my own business, writing my term paper, and he texts me and is like "hammered". it was like 12:30 at this point, so kinda late, but i didnt say that i was hella nice and played along with his stupid shit.
anyway so as the conversation progresses we talk about my being in high school and he starts saying all this shit about how i'm not old enough for him!! WTF?! and then he starts giving me his life story and i didn't really know what the eff he was talking about but i tried to be like "okay i respect that" you know? but then he was like "you dont know anything about life, you're immature, blah blah..." (um hello i'm here trying to write my paper and you're drunk texting me to tell me I'M immature??)
then he's all like "i'm into more mature girls...i don't think you have much to offer for me right now..."
you know something's not right in the world when you start getting rejected by guys who arent even on your level. then he asked me if i'm attractive (basically forcing me to seem hella full of myself) and said he "might be interested if i sent some nudes". i was like um how about YOU send ME some nudes and then we'll talk about who doesnt have a lot to offer.
then he called me a "little girl" and basically told me to leave him alone. whatever, i'm over that!!
oh my god. too much drama. basically lucas proved himself to be 100% asshole last night.
i'm minding my own business, writing my term paper, and he texts me and is like "hammered". it was like 12:30 at this point, so kinda late, but i didnt say that i was hella nice and played along with his stupid shit.
anyway so as the conversation progresses we talk about my being in high school and he starts saying all this shit about how i'm not old enough for him!! WTF?! and then he starts giving me his life story and i didn't really know what the eff he was talking about but i tried to be like "okay i respect that" you know? but then he was like "you dont know anything about life, you're immature, blah blah..." (um hello i'm here trying to write my paper and you're drunk texting me to tell me I'M immature??)
then he's all like "i'm into more mature girls...i don't think you have much to offer for me right now..."
you know something's not right in the world when you start getting rejected by guys who arent even on your level. then he asked me if i'm attractive (basically forcing me to seem hella full of myself) and said he "might be interested if i sent some nudes". i was like um how about YOU send ME some nudes and then we'll talk about who doesnt have a lot to offer.
then he called me a "little girl" and basically told me to leave him alone. whatever, i'm over that!!
fake
dear diary,
so a schism has occured. this schism can be likened to the great schism of 1509. in other words, lucas and i are on a break. not really, more like i'm just taking a hiatus from him. im going incognito for a while. under wraps, down low, whatever you want to call it.
here's the deal: i always text him and we talk until HE doesnt feel like it anymore. what kind of relationship is that? i'm over it.
i may have to find someone new. its sad and everything, but lucas just isnt cutting it anymore.
whatever. life's tough..you know the rest.
so a schism has occured. this schism can be likened to the great schism of 1509. in other words, lucas and i are on a break. not really, more like i'm just taking a hiatus from him. im going incognito for a while. under wraps, down low, whatever you want to call it.
here's the deal: i always text him and we talk until HE doesnt feel like it anymore. what kind of relationship is that? i'm over it.
i may have to find someone new. its sad and everything, but lucas just isnt cutting it anymore.
whatever. life's tough..you know the rest.
like whoa
dear diary,
i'm finding it really hard to keep up with my journal lately. i mean, i have lots to talk about but so much shit has been going down i dont even have time to reflect.
i'm finding it really hard to keep up with my journal lately. i mean, i have lots to talk about but so much shit has been going down i dont even have time to reflect.
year of the cat
dear diary,
lucas left me hanging yesterday. i'm really mad at him. i thought he was different. now i know better.
lucas left me hanging yesterday. i'm really mad at him. i thought he was different. now i know better.
so contagious
dear diary,
so i forgot my journal at home last tuesday, meaning another failing grade. luckily, i got hella extra credit for my entries over spring break. its good to know stewart's got my back.
by the way lucas texted me last night and we were talking until like 2 am. we talked about everything under the sun. he wants to have lunch tomorrow, so we'll see where that goes.
so i forgot my journal at home last tuesday, meaning another failing grade. luckily, i got hella extra credit for my entries over spring break. its good to know stewart's got my back.
by the way lucas texted me last night and we were talking until like 2 am. we talked about everything under the sun. he wants to have lunch tomorrow, so we'll see where that goes.
ayo technology
dear diary,
oh my god. last night was so crazy, i cant even begin to explain, but i will anyway. stephanie's notorious for not knowing her limits, but ive never seen her this bad. we were all just relaxing and having a totally low key evening and steph just wouldnt stop drinking. shes been going through some shit lately and i guess she was just trying to forget about it. which is understandable, dont get me wrong, but it doesnt excuse her actions.
anyway so one minute shes having a great time and the next she flips out and starts going apeshit. she was like biting and scratching and pulling my hair, i thought she was possessed. this one guy tried to pull her off me and she like dropkicked him. i think he had to go to the hospital.
then she goes and finds this girl thats hanging out in the kitchen, 100% innocent, and starts chasing her around with a knife.
she passed out somewhere between the bathroom and the garage, and when she woke up in the morning she didnt remember a thing. it was pretty fucked up.
oh my god. last night was so crazy, i cant even begin to explain, but i will anyway. stephanie's notorious for not knowing her limits, but ive never seen her this bad. we were all just relaxing and having a totally low key evening and steph just wouldnt stop drinking. shes been going through some shit lately and i guess she was just trying to forget about it. which is understandable, dont get me wrong, but it doesnt excuse her actions.
anyway so one minute shes having a great time and the next she flips out and starts going apeshit. she was like biting and scratching and pulling my hair, i thought she was possessed. this one guy tried to pull her off me and she like dropkicked him. i think he had to go to the hospital.
then she goes and finds this girl thats hanging out in the kitchen, 100% innocent, and starts chasing her around with a knife.
she passed out somewhere between the bathroom and the garage, and when she woke up in the morning she didnt remember a thing. it was pretty fucked up.
doctor jones
dear diary,
totally feelin tech theatre these days. i might try out for the lead role in our next production. i may not have much experience but its pretty clear to me at this point that i have a natural talent. i could upstage all those bitches.
speaking of upstaging, i need to get a little more agressive with project lucas. i'll just strike up a conversation today. i'm sure he loves hearing from me.
i'm out.
totally feelin tech theatre these days. i might try out for the lead role in our next production. i may not have much experience but its pretty clear to me at this point that i have a natural talent. i could upstage all those bitches.
speaking of upstaging, i need to get a little more agressive with project lucas. i'll just strike up a conversation today. i'm sure he loves hearing from me.
i'm out.
shut up and let me go
dear diary,
wow i'm so lost without stephanie here!! i never thought i'd miss having to put up with her bullshit all the time. maybe im just jealous cause i know shes probably hooked up with tons of mexican hotties.
im loving this lesson on greek theatre. i'm really feeling drawn to these pictures in the slideshow. i think i should go back to my roots and start really getting into this acting thing. the greeks like, pioneered theatre. actually the greeks pioneered everything. i'm wasting my time with stupid shit like boys and skateboarding. its time to embrace my cultural heritage and become a more enlightened member of society.
now we're talking about the shakespeare festival oregon. can you say roadtrip??
ps i havent heard from lucas in awhile. whatever hes probably busy. i wonder if he's into theatre?
wow i'm so lost without stephanie here!! i never thought i'd miss having to put up with her bullshit all the time. maybe im just jealous cause i know shes probably hooked up with tons of mexican hotties.
im loving this lesson on greek theatre. i'm really feeling drawn to these pictures in the slideshow. i think i should go back to my roots and start really getting into this acting thing. the greeks like, pioneered theatre. actually the greeks pioneered everything. i'm wasting my time with stupid shit like boys and skateboarding. its time to embrace my cultural heritage and become a more enlightened member of society.
now we're talking about the shakespeare festival oregon. can you say roadtrip??
ps i havent heard from lucas in awhile. whatever hes probably busy. i wonder if he's into theatre?
waste my time
dear diary,
so maybe i got a little overconfident there. he didnt come to seattle and now hes off to the middle of nowhere for filming or whatever. but im cool with it. we had a totally meaningful conversation. he explained why he wasnt in seattle and i was like "ok whatever" and then he just asks me what i'm doing out of nowhere!! i'm like 90% sure we're soulmates at this point.
xoxo
so maybe i got a little overconfident there. he didnt come to seattle and now hes off to the middle of nowhere for filming or whatever. but im cool with it. we had a totally meaningful conversation. he explained why he wasnt in seattle and i was like "ok whatever" and then he just asks me what i'm doing out of nowhere!! i'm like 90% sure we're soulmates at this point.
xoxo
soft rock star
dear diary,
oh. my. god.
okay clearly i havent been making the most out of spring break. this we know. but its not my fault.
life is just such a bummer lately. but guess who texted me? bingo! lucas!! he wanted to know if im in town. which i am, of course, considering my lack of a social life these days. this is totally just what i needed. i'm back to my old self!!
xoxo
oh. my. god.
okay clearly i havent been making the most out of spring break. this we know. but its not my fault.
life is just such a bummer lately. but guess who texted me? bingo! lucas!! he wanted to know if im in town. which i am, of course, considering my lack of a social life these days. this is totally just what i needed. i'm back to my old self!!
xoxo
MOVE FOR ME
dear diary,
i dont know whats wrong with me lately. last night steph and i went with scotty to this party. hes leaving soon so they kind of went off to do their own thing while i sat there feeling like the black sheep of the world. baa.
a few guys tried to talk to me but i wasnt feelin it. this one dude was especially cute so i was like semi interested but then he opened his mouth and was the definition of a dbag. i realized that i just cant be bothered with all these wannabes. besides, since when am i the type of girl to sleep around with some guy just cause he's good looking? dont answer that.
i dont know diary, i guess i'll just see where things go from here.
i dont know whats wrong with me lately. last night steph and i went with scotty to this party. hes leaving soon so they kind of went off to do their own thing while i sat there feeling like the black sheep of the world. baa.
a few guys tried to talk to me but i wasnt feelin it. this one dude was especially cute so i was like semi interested but then he opened his mouth and was the definition of a dbag. i realized that i just cant be bothered with all these wannabes. besides, since when am i the type of girl to sleep around with some guy just cause he's good looking? dont answer that.
i dont know diary, i guess i'll just see where things go from here.
forever & always
dear diary,
totally effed up that quiz. i thought i'd taken some really detailed notes but they werent as helpful as i'd hoped. it just sucks cause i really felt like i was getting the hang out this theatre thing.
my brothers had some really harsh critique when i did my monologue. theyre on stage all the time so its like no big deal for them.
stephanie's sucking up as usual and going to all these plays and shit for extra credit. god. whatever.
basically school is bringing me down lately. luckily spring break is upon us. i'm thinking nonstop partying, mixed with maximum chill out time. stephs going to be in mexico...
more later,
flora
totally effed up that quiz. i thought i'd taken some really detailed notes but they werent as helpful as i'd hoped. it just sucks cause i really felt like i was getting the hang out this theatre thing.
my brothers had some really harsh critique when i did my monologue. theyre on stage all the time so its like no big deal for them.
stephanie's sucking up as usual and going to all these plays and shit for extra credit. god. whatever.
basically school is bringing me down lately. luckily spring break is upon us. i'm thinking nonstop partying, mixed with maximum chill out time. stephs going to be in mexico...
more later,
flora
somethings gotta give
dear diary,
eff school im so done with this shiz.
anyway so benji and joel are in town, so i got the whole family to kick it in the living room while i recited my monologue. its really coming along, i think.
eff school im so done with this shiz.
anyway so benji and joel are in town, so i got the whole family to kick it in the living room while i recited my monologue. its really coming along, i think.
everythings just wonderful
dear diary,
so i officially watched shaun's win on tv. as steph would say, gag me with a spoon. i'm essentially over him. whatever sometimes you just have to give your friends some space until they stop being assholes, you know? i go through that with stephanie practically on the daily.
speaking of assholes, lucas texted me the other day and asked for my myspace. i was like um hello, i deleted that forever ago. i dont have time to sit on my ass all day in front of a computer screen. anyway i really didnt like his tone. like is he trying to make sure im cute or something? i mean i'm no tyra banks but im not a troll for christ's sake. whatever. this just further proves my point that all men are pigs.
later.
so i officially watched shaun's win on tv. as steph would say, gag me with a spoon. i'm essentially over him. whatever sometimes you just have to give your friends some space until they stop being assholes, you know? i go through that with stephanie practically on the daily.
speaking of assholes, lucas texted me the other day and asked for my myspace. i was like um hello, i deleted that forever ago. i dont have time to sit on my ass all day in front of a computer screen. anyway i really didnt like his tone. like is he trying to make sure im cute or something? i mean i'm no tyra banks but im not a troll for christ's sake. whatever. this just further proves my point that all men are pigs.
later.
life your life
dear diary,
so shaun won the US open, as it totally standard. i know i should be supportive of him but the whole thing is just getting old. he called me after and wouldnt stop talking about it. like hello am i supposed to be happy for you?
oh well lifes tough get a helmet, you know?
so shaun won the US open, as it totally standard. i know i should be supportive of him but the whole thing is just getting old. he called me after and wouldnt stop talking about it. like hello am i supposed to be happy for you?
oh well lifes tough get a helmet, you know?
dangerous
dear diary,
so theres no school today and im totally feelin it. plans for the day include some skating on the waterfront and just chillin at home. no biggie.
so theres no school today and im totally feelin it. plans for the day include some skating on the waterfront and just chillin at home. no biggie.
i cant help myself
dear diary,
FUCK!!! worst thing ever just happened. i text lucas, just like "hey whats up" no big deal. just cause we hadnt talked in a while. whatever. anyway. so he texts back and is like "lost my numbers whos this?"
FJSJFLKSJFJESKFJSEKJGKEGLS.
okay maybe i'm overreacting. its just that i feel awkward being like "oh its me blah blah..." i dont even know right now things are just confusing.
im waiting for a reply. what if he ignores my text?
as you know, this kind of thing doesnt usually happen to me.
i'm 100% serious about this. at the same time i cant just come right now and confess my love for him. i have to take it slow.
FUCK!!! worst thing ever just happened. i text lucas, just like "hey whats up" no big deal. just cause we hadnt talked in a while. whatever. anyway. so he texts back and is like "lost my numbers whos this?"
FJSJFLKSJFJESKFJSEKJGKEGLS.
okay maybe i'm overreacting. its just that i feel awkward being like "oh its me blah blah..." i dont even know right now things are just confusing.
im waiting for a reply. what if he ignores my text?
as you know, this kind of thing doesnt usually happen to me.
i'm 100% serious about this. at the same time i cant just come right now and confess my love for him. i have to take it slow.
luv me luv me
dear diary,
my mom found an empty bottle of wine in my room and now im practically on trial. god.
my mom found an empty bottle of wine in my room and now im practically on trial. god.
help i'm alive
dear diary,
it takes every ounce of strenght not to call/text lucas. i dont want to bother him.
im not a freaking mind reader, for all iknow he shows my texts to all his friends and laughs about it. OMG. i will die.
i need the perfect thing to say to him. like, im interested but not desperate. youre cute but not so cute i couldnt find someone better if you blew me off...
i'll have to talk to steph about this.
it takes every ounce of strenght not to call/text lucas. i dont want to bother him.
im not a freaking mind reader, for all iknow he shows my texts to all his friends and laughs about it. OMG. i will die.
i need the perfect thing to say to him. like, im interested but not desperate. youre cute but not so cute i couldnt find someone better if you blew me off...
i'll have to talk to steph about this.
man overboard
dear diary,
so we're back from baker and back to school. being up there just made me think of lucas and now i'm kinda bummed. i havent spoken to him in a while, which is totally understable cause i guess hes in montana doing filming or some shit?
he should be back in a week and im counting down the minutes. im thinking i might invite him to come kick it in seattle, but im nervous. i have the feeling it'll be like that miley cyrus song "see you again". this is so weird, i NEVER get nervous around guys. but just thinking about him gets me totally flustered. whatever im a big girl, i can handle myself.
i get the feeling hes a total party animal, so i know we'll just get drunk and hang. the best thing to do with a guy that makes you nervous is just get comfortable around him.
i think working on this monologue and performing it will really help me with my self confidence. i can really use those skills with the lucas situation.
so we're back from baker and back to school. being up there just made me think of lucas and now i'm kinda bummed. i havent spoken to him in a while, which is totally understable cause i guess hes in montana doing filming or some shit?
he should be back in a week and im counting down the minutes. im thinking i might invite him to come kick it in seattle, but im nervous. i have the feeling it'll be like that miley cyrus song "see you again". this is so weird, i NEVER get nervous around guys. but just thinking about him gets me totally flustered. whatever im a big girl, i can handle myself.
i get the feeling hes a total party animal, so i know we'll just get drunk and hang. the best thing to do with a guy that makes you nervous is just get comfortable around him.
i think working on this monologue and performing it will really help me with my self confidence. i can really use those skills with the lucas situation.
longview
dear diary,
omg. if you thought my life was dramatic you aint heard nothin yet!!
this morning, the slopes were covered with amateurs and the snow was kinda lame so we decided to check out the backcountry. theres been some problems with avalanche and stuff lately but i figured we'd be fine. we didnt have any equipment or whatever but it was no biggie. plus louisa did that like junior navy seals thing last year and supposedly they prepared her for any possible situation.
anyway so im minding my own business, about to go off this cliff, when the ground collapses under me!! things went from there. basically we had to outrun it which was like no big deal. it was actually pretty gnarly but i was just a little worried for lou, with the baby and all. avalanches are so bogus. but we're all alive so whatever.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
omg. if you thought my life was dramatic you aint heard nothin yet!!
this morning, the slopes were covered with amateurs and the snow was kinda lame so we decided to check out the backcountry. theres been some problems with avalanche and stuff lately but i figured we'd be fine. we didnt have any equipment or whatever but it was no biggie. plus louisa did that like junior navy seals thing last year and supposedly they prepared her for any possible situation.
anyway so im minding my own business, about to go off this cliff, when the ground collapses under me!! things went from there. basically we had to outrun it which was like no big deal. it was actually pretty gnarly but i was just a little worried for lou, with the baby and all. avalanches are so bogus. but we're all alive so whatever.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
stranded
dear diary,
so we're at baker right now and its off the richter. louisa is totally inspiring, pregnant and tearing up the slopes with the best of em!!
we actually hit up this party but i snuck away to write some shit down cause things were getting pretty heated and im just not down with all the drama. basically, some girl started calling lou a poser and shit. she was pretty harsh and lou got kinda po'd so things went from there.
im pretty sure she was jealous cause her man was all up on louisa. she's pretty aesthetically challenged, so you cant really hold it against him. clearly he cant keep his paws to himself, and if you ask me thats grounds for a breakup anyway.
wait, why am i getting involved with these lame-os?? im gonna go snag the girls and bail!!
so we're at baker right now and its off the richter. louisa is totally inspiring, pregnant and tearing up the slopes with the best of em!!
we actually hit up this party but i snuck away to write some shit down cause things were getting pretty heated and im just not down with all the drama. basically, some girl started calling lou a poser and shit. she was pretty harsh and lou got kinda po'd so things went from there.
im pretty sure she was jealous cause her man was all up on louisa. she's pretty aesthetically challenged, so you cant really hold it against him. clearly he cant keep his paws to himself, and if you ask me thats grounds for a breakup anyway.
wait, why am i getting involved with these lame-os?? im gonna go snag the girls and bail!!
hey you
dear diary,
so last night im sitting around after the run-in with the popo and thinking "my life has gone to shit", you know? i was totally bummed until louisa called and proposed that we head up to baker for the weekend. i was down until i remembered i was grounded and i wasnt about to disrespect the fam like that.
sike!! as if.
what are my parents gonna do, call the fbi?
so last night im sitting around after the run-in with the popo and thinking "my life has gone to shit", you know? i was totally bummed until louisa called and proposed that we head up to baker for the weekend. i was down until i remembered i was grounded and i wasnt about to disrespect the fam like that.
sike!! as if.
what are my parents gonna do, call the fbi?
speakerphone
dear diary,
so last night steph and i were bored and decided to do some skating. the park was full of amateurs, so we took it to the streets. we hit up the fountain across from westlake, which was totally sweet. there were some hotties standing around too, so we really went all out.
but get this. one minute im tearing it up and the next thing i know im flat on my back being straddled by this dude in a police uniform! that was nothing new to me of course, but this time was a little different considering the guy was actually a cop.
anyway so i was about ready to knock this guy out when he got up and starting giving us a lecture about not skating on private property. who did this guy think he was, god? he probably just thought i was hot. what a sicko.
im tired of the fucking seattle police telling me what to do. skateboarding is not a crime!!
so last night steph and i were bored and decided to do some skating. the park was full of amateurs, so we took it to the streets. we hit up the fountain across from westlake, which was totally sweet. there were some hotties standing around too, so we really went all out.
but get this. one minute im tearing it up and the next thing i know im flat on my back being straddled by this dude in a police uniform! that was nothing new to me of course, but this time was a little different considering the guy was actually a cop.
anyway so i was about ready to knock this guy out when he got up and starting giving us a lecture about not skating on private property. who did this guy think he was, god? he probably just thought i was hot. what a sicko.
im tired of the fucking seattle police telling me what to do. skateboarding is not a crime!!
l.a. girls
dear diary,
so last night was crazy, like so much shit went down. basically as i was getting ready for bed, i get this text from kevin. im supposed to be ignoring him or whatever, but he said to get dressed and come outside, and am i really one to pass up a night of partying? anyway so i hop into his range rover and we went to some guys apartment. it was just the usual until about 2 am and who shows up? scotty!! i knew steph would be stoked so i tried to call her but her phone was off. i put in a good word for her. anyway so i had this personal revelation around 2:45. kevin is a total borewar. im totally serious after about 10 minutes of kickin it with him im like "wow for real?" like he's a nice guy and everything but that just doesnt cut it, you know? i need a guy that can keep up!
to be perfectly honest, i cant stop thinking about lucas. i really just want to call or text him but like he never seems excited to talk to me. i dont wanna be pursuing a guy thats just gonna hate on me. i've put up with that enough already and im so over it.
anyway so speaking of hating, i was feeling kinda bummed and when kevin dropped me off my mom and dad were awake! i was like semi-wasted at this point, so there was no avoiding it. i was busted. it was whack, the last time they were at a party things were still defrosting from the ice age. they couldnt possibly understand.
theyre seriously bringing me down lately.
so last night was crazy, like so much shit went down. basically as i was getting ready for bed, i get this text from kevin. im supposed to be ignoring him or whatever, but he said to get dressed and come outside, and am i really one to pass up a night of partying? anyway so i hop into his range rover and we went to some guys apartment. it was just the usual until about 2 am and who shows up? scotty!! i knew steph would be stoked so i tried to call her but her phone was off. i put in a good word for her. anyway so i had this personal revelation around 2:45. kevin is a total borewar. im totally serious after about 10 minutes of kickin it with him im like "wow for real?" like he's a nice guy and everything but that just doesnt cut it, you know? i need a guy that can keep up!
to be perfectly honest, i cant stop thinking about lucas. i really just want to call or text him but like he never seems excited to talk to me. i dont wanna be pursuing a guy thats just gonna hate on me. i've put up with that enough already and im so over it.
anyway so speaking of hating, i was feeling kinda bummed and when kevin dropped me off my mom and dad were awake! i was like semi-wasted at this point, so there was no avoiding it. i was busted. it was whack, the last time they were at a party things were still defrosting from the ice age. they couldnt possibly understand.
theyre seriously bringing me down lately.
sensual
dear diary,
so i was looking through some of my old shit and found lucas's digits!! i met him at this party like a few months ago and he said to call if i was ever in the area. i was starting to think it was a lost cause, but i just came across the little slip of paper in my sock drawer. go figure, right?
anyway so we've been texting back and forth. hes like pretty cute if i remember correctly. i asked if he's dating anyone and he said "not at the moment". what does that mean? i cant tell if hes into me or what. like we'll be talking and all of the sudden he just stops responding. is he playing hard to get or something? i really dont like it when guys toy with my emotions like that. but i dunno he seems pretty relaxed. maybe he's just playing it cool.
i just wish he would be real with me.
i tried talking to erin about this, but he was no help as usual.
kevin's being so mean. he hasnt responded to my last 3 texts. at least lucas manages to carry on a conversation. i may have to let kevin go. i really do hate boys, but its just hard to ignore them. i'll bring this up at feminism club today.
so i was looking through some of my old shit and found lucas's digits!! i met him at this party like a few months ago and he said to call if i was ever in the area. i was starting to think it was a lost cause, but i just came across the little slip of paper in my sock drawer. go figure, right?
anyway so we've been texting back and forth. hes like pretty cute if i remember correctly. i asked if he's dating anyone and he said "not at the moment". what does that mean? i cant tell if hes into me or what. like we'll be talking and all of the sudden he just stops responding. is he playing hard to get or something? i really dont like it when guys toy with my emotions like that. but i dunno he seems pretty relaxed. maybe he's just playing it cool.
i just wish he would be real with me.
i tried talking to erin about this, but he was no help as usual.
kevin's being so mean. he hasnt responded to my last 3 texts. at least lucas manages to carry on a conversation. i may have to let kevin go. i really do hate boys, but its just hard to ignore them. i'll bring this up at feminism club today.
poker face
dear diary,
so today was the first meeting of the ghs feminism club! its going great so far, we're even getting these super cute tshirts so you know its legit. the design we're looking at has "ghs feminism club" printed on the front, and our slogan "because all men are assholes", on the back. as it stands, wearing them would be against the dress code, but i'm pushing to have an exception made, considering its for educational purposes. thank god for the ghsfc!! its about time we got some girl power goin on around here.
in other news, i was up like all last night waiting for kevin to call me.
xoxo, flora
ps my parents saw that i got an N on my most recent journal entries and took away the car for a month. now i cant drive out to monroe for the annual cervical cancer walk fundraiser!! damn, i'll just have to make sure i put dates on all my entries!!
so today was the first meeting of the ghs feminism club! its going great so far, we're even getting these super cute tshirts so you know its legit. the design we're looking at has "ghs feminism club" printed on the front, and our slogan "because all men are assholes", on the back. as it stands, wearing them would be against the dress code, but i'm pushing to have an exception made, considering its for educational purposes. thank god for the ghsfc!! its about time we got some girl power goin on around here.
in other news, i was up like all last night waiting for kevin to call me.
xoxo, flora
ps my parents saw that i got an N on my most recent journal entries and took away the car for a month. now i cant drive out to monroe for the annual cervical cancer walk fundraiser!! damn, i'll just have to make sure i put dates on all my entries!!
made of glass
dear diary,
so kevin texted me yesterday. i know i was going to try to stay away from guys for awhile but this totally threew me off. im going to be fully distracted all week. how annoying. why were men even put on this earth? they're all complete assholes, and disgusting pigs. they're essentially useless.
anyway, so kevin's pretty cute, but above all he's a totally nice guy. i'm not going to write out the whole background story here, but basically we were an item for a few months last year until he started getting really busy and it was obvious he didnt have time for a relationship. i told him we were through and moved on. i knew we'd lose touch, but that was a risk i was willing to take. i had way too much going on in my life to wait around for some guy.
anyway, so he texts me and is all like "hey whats up?" standard. i didnt respond for a few hours. how dare me throw me a curveball like that? it would be one thing if he was like ugly and mean or something, but hes basically my ideal guy. i couldnt ignore him. so i responded to his stupid text and things went from there. basically hes going to be in town this weekend and wants to meet up. typical. whatever, you cant win them all. i just have to let fate take it from here.
so kevin texted me yesterday. i know i was going to try to stay away from guys for awhile but this totally threew me off. im going to be fully distracted all week. how annoying. why were men even put on this earth? they're all complete assholes, and disgusting pigs. they're essentially useless.
anyway, so kevin's pretty cute, but above all he's a totally nice guy. i'm not going to write out the whole background story here, but basically we were an item for a few months last year until he started getting really busy and it was obvious he didnt have time for a relationship. i told him we were through and moved on. i knew we'd lose touch, but that was a risk i was willing to take. i had way too much going on in my life to wait around for some guy.
anyway, so he texts me and is all like "hey whats up?" standard. i didnt respond for a few hours. how dare me throw me a curveball like that? it would be one thing if he was like ugly and mean or something, but hes basically my ideal guy. i couldnt ignore him. so i responded to his stupid text and things went from there. basically hes going to be in town this weekend and wants to meet up. typical. whatever, you cant win them all. i just have to let fate take it from here.
green light
dear diary,
so today some girl called me from roxy. they want me to be a part of their next advertising campaign or something. i was like "um are you kidding me?" roxy is the opposite of hardcore, theres no way i'd ever associate myself with that name.
i've been getting a lot of offers from sponsors lately. i know i should seriously take advantage of this. i mean i bet like every single person in the world knows shaun's name by now and if that's the best the snowboarding industry can bring to the table, i doubt theres much competition out there for me. trust me, i've known the guy years, he's still pretty amateur at this point.
speaking of shaun, ever since steph's yoga retreat and our recent hawaiian adventures, she's been kind of over him, but hes really persistent. its sad cause i know he really loves her. but on the other hand i totally feel where she's coming from. we're both just trying to sit back and live in the spirit of aloha, you know? i know snowboarding and surfing both have the potential to take me really far in life, but theres always the possibility that i could settle down and become a brain surgeon like i always dreamed of! its official: im so over the snowboarding thing. i need to focus on myself.
so today some girl called me from roxy. they want me to be a part of their next advertising campaign or something. i was like "um are you kidding me?" roxy is the opposite of hardcore, theres no way i'd ever associate myself with that name.
i've been getting a lot of offers from sponsors lately. i know i should seriously take advantage of this. i mean i bet like every single person in the world knows shaun's name by now and if that's the best the snowboarding industry can bring to the table, i doubt theres much competition out there for me. trust me, i've known the guy years, he's still pretty amateur at this point.
speaking of shaun, ever since steph's yoga retreat and our recent hawaiian adventures, she's been kind of over him, but hes really persistent. its sad cause i know he really loves her. but on the other hand i totally feel where she's coming from. we're both just trying to sit back and live in the spirit of aloha, you know? i know snowboarding and surfing both have the potential to take me really far in life, but theres always the possibility that i could settle down and become a brain surgeon like i always dreamed of! its official: im so over the snowboarding thing. i need to focus on myself.
the game of love
teachers that could have reported me for my leggings:
mr knapton: 50%. he's pretty strict about rules and shit, but he seems pretty oblivious to most of them.
mr hawk: 40%. i highly doubt he would stab me in the back like that, but he is kind of sneaky.
mr tsutakawa: 0%. as long as its not during a performance, he doesnt give a shit. hes got more important things to worry about.
mr truax: 10%. he definitely cares more about what im learning than what im wearing.
ms mcbride and mr hill: ms mcbride is getting more lax about the rules all the time, and mr hill is just too nice.
what am i saying?? i got in trouble DURING 3rd period. last three teachers, 0%.
man, i dunno. the mystery will be solved.
xoxo, fuck da haters!!
flora
mr knapton: 50%. he's pretty strict about rules and shit, but he seems pretty oblivious to most of them.
mr hawk: 40%. i highly doubt he would stab me in the back like that, but he is kind of sneaky.
mr tsutakawa: 0%. as long as its not during a performance, he doesnt give a shit. hes got more important things to worry about.
mr truax: 10%. he definitely cares more about what im learning than what im wearing.
ms mcbride and mr hill: ms mcbride is getting more lax about the rules all the time, and mr hill is just too nice.
what am i saying?? i got in trouble DURING 3rd period. last three teachers, 0%.
man, i dunno. the mystery will be solved.
xoxo, fuck da haters!!
flora
cuba libre
dear diary,
so today i got busted for breaking the dress code. leggings are strictly forbidden, who knew? i got called up to dr casey's office and things got a little out of hand. what can i say, im just not down with being disrespected like that.
it's obvious that one of the teachers here at GHS really has it out for me. i just hope that whoever reported me owns up to what they did. i always thought my education was more important than my attire, but i guess i was wrong.
on a lighter note, mr hawk confiscated my phone while i was turning the ringer down! cant be too angry about that, i knew i was breaking the rules. but i didnt want it to ring during someone's animal pantomime! ah well, such is life.
so today i got busted for breaking the dress code. leggings are strictly forbidden, who knew? i got called up to dr casey's office and things got a little out of hand. what can i say, im just not down with being disrespected like that.
it's obvious that one of the teachers here at GHS really has it out for me. i just hope that whoever reported me owns up to what they did. i always thought my education was more important than my attire, but i guess i was wrong.
on a lighter note, mr hawk confiscated my phone while i was turning the ringer down! cant be too angry about that, i knew i was breaking the rules. but i didnt want it to ring during someone's animal pantomime! ah well, such is life.
can i walk by
dear diary,
thank god i have you back. so much shit has been going down and i hate not having this outlet to express myself.
anyway, coming back from maui was a total bummer. its roughly 30 below outside, wind chill not included, and im just not used to it. i can tell stephanie's taking it really hard too, she misses all the boys in boardshorts.
speaking of boys, theres something thats been bothering me lately. i keep trying to shove it to the back of my mind, but i have to be honest here and accept it: the father of louisa's unborn baby is ryan (sheckler, not rautureau). i didnt even know they hooked up. i mean ryan and i have been over for a long time but it still hurts. i was so upset at first but i know louisa really needs my support right now. and this CANNOT get publicized. it would be really bad for his career.
whatever, life goes on. steph and i are thinking we might go up to baker this weekend. snowboarding seems so lame now, compared to the epic surf in hawaii.
i dont know. things are just confusing right now.
shit. fuck. god damnit.
thank god i have you back. so much shit has been going down and i hate not having this outlet to express myself.
anyway, coming back from maui was a total bummer. its roughly 30 below outside, wind chill not included, and im just not used to it. i can tell stephanie's taking it really hard too, she misses all the boys in boardshorts.
speaking of boys, theres something thats been bothering me lately. i keep trying to shove it to the back of my mind, but i have to be honest here and accept it: the father of louisa's unborn baby is ryan (sheckler, not rautureau). i didnt even know they hooked up. i mean ryan and i have been over for a long time but it still hurts. i was so upset at first but i know louisa really needs my support right now. and this CANNOT get publicized. it would be really bad for his career.
whatever, life goes on. steph and i are thinking we might go up to baker this weekend. snowboarding seems so lame now, compared to the epic surf in hawaii.
i dont know. things are just confusing right now.
shit. fuck. god damnit.
dirty dancing
dear diary,
maui is getting more intense by the minute. today, we drove out to hana (total shoobie territory, i know, but i just love the scenery). we stopped in pai'a for a little wave riding. kyle and masaijah took us out and gave us a few tips.
i think theres something going on between steph and masaijah, only because he swam out to get her board when she forgot to strap it to her ankle. standard. steph always gets flustered around him, so thats totally understandable.
anyway, im glad stephs a found a nice guy, after the whole shaun debacle.
kyle said i could move in with him anytime, which is totally sweet. he would spread the aloha like that.
maui is getting more intense by the minute. today, we drove out to hana (total shoobie territory, i know, but i just love the scenery). we stopped in pai'a for a little wave riding. kyle and masaijah took us out and gave us a few tips.
i think theres something going on between steph and masaijah, only because he swam out to get her board when she forgot to strap it to her ankle. standard. steph always gets flustered around him, so thats totally understandable.
anyway, im glad stephs a found a nice guy, after the whole shaun debacle.
kyle said i could move in with him anytime, which is totally sweet. he would spread the aloha like that.
represent cuba
dear diary,
more news from maui. steph and i went to visit helen at her condo. there were a few celebs there, but nothing really came out of that except emile hirsch buying us some drinks. that was like, no big deal. i mean the whole hollywood thing isnt really my scene. plus, as posh as the place was, it was fully infiltrated with shoobies.
we're thinking tomorrow we'll show helen what the spirit of aloha is really all about. kyles gonna introduce us to his crew down here and you know thats gonna lead to some crazy shit.
more news from maui. steph and i went to visit helen at her condo. there were a few celebs there, but nothing really came out of that except emile hirsch buying us some drinks. that was like, no big deal. i mean the whole hollywood thing isnt really my scene. plus, as posh as the place was, it was fully infiltrated with shoobies.
we're thinking tomorrow we'll show helen what the spirit of aloha is really all about. kyles gonna introduce us to his crew down here and you know thats gonna lead to some crazy shit.
around the world
dear diary,
hawaii so far is beyond rad. steph and i hooked up with cj (kanuha, not graham) and rode some epic waves this morning at a little spot near pai'a. i'd dish more but i cant really expose the exact location.
anyway, all i can tell you is that we hit up a serious swell and rocked it. steph and i are really improving; i did my first backside hack and steph fine tuned her bottom turn to stall. we both caught more air than a flight to tokyo, and i was totally feelin it.
after surfing surfing and a little more surfing, we hit up this party at kyle ramey's sister's apartment and things got a little crazy. i was totally feeling kyle, hes down to earth and my type for sure, i just worry about getting too involved with guys down here cause i know i cant sacrifice my snowboarding career. oh well im just gonna roll with the punches on this one.
tomorrow, more epic wave riding, possible with kelly (slater, not waks).
spreading the aloha,
flora
hawaii so far is beyond rad. steph and i hooked up with cj (kanuha, not graham) and rode some epic waves this morning at a little spot near pai'a. i'd dish more but i cant really expose the exact location.
anyway, all i can tell you is that we hit up a serious swell and rocked it. steph and i are really improving; i did my first backside hack and steph fine tuned her bottom turn to stall. we both caught more air than a flight to tokyo, and i was totally feelin it.
after surfing surfing and a little more surfing, we hit up this party at kyle ramey's sister's apartment and things got a little crazy. i was totally feeling kyle, hes down to earth and my type for sure, i just worry about getting too involved with guys down here cause i know i cant sacrifice my snowboarding career. oh well im just gonna roll with the punches on this one.
tomorrow, more epic wave riding, possible with kelly (slater, not waks).
spreading the aloha,
flora
la tortura
dear diary,
so i've been thinking really hard about where snowboarding is going to take me in life and i've decided that i really need to step it up a notch. i've been seriously considering going pro for a while now, and it just feels like the right thing to do. like its my destiny or some shit.
unfortunately, there are some real downers in the industry. exhibit a, this girl from wisconsin or some other nowheresville usa thats been seriously ragging on me every time i see her at the summit. she keeps telling me i suck and i should get off the mountain and shit and im like "lay off man" but she wont quit.
whatever im over posers like that. my current goal is just to win some contests, like get recognized, put myself out there you know?
xoxo, fuck da haters,
flora
so i've been thinking really hard about where snowboarding is going to take me in life and i've decided that i really need to step it up a notch. i've been seriously considering going pro for a while now, and it just feels like the right thing to do. like its my destiny or some shit.
unfortunately, there are some real downers in the industry. exhibit a, this girl from wisconsin or some other nowheresville usa thats been seriously ragging on me every time i see her at the summit. she keeps telling me i suck and i should get off the mountain and shit and im like "lay off man" but she wont quit.
whatever im over posers like that. my current goal is just to win some contests, like get recognized, put myself out there you know?
xoxo, fuck da haters,
flora
all i want to do
dear diary,
i really need some guidance right now. tonight's been an emotional roller coaster. its a long story, so i'll try to make it short.
it all started this morning up on blackcomb (im at my condo in whistler right now, in case you didnt know). i was stuck in the flats when this fat bitch on skiis didnt know what the eff she was doing and crashed right into me. i was thinking about what a noob i looked like when a young brad pitt rode up and started helping me (im kidding about the brad pitt thing, but trust me he was hot). anyway, we rode together for awhile and talked. he didnt have much to say, but i had plenty. hes just the strong silent type. his name is hawk, by the way. i dont really know how to spell that, i'm pretty sure he's armenian. anyway, we got to the park and as it turns out, he cant even do a full 360. off anything. i'm pretty sure he couldnt even do it on the ground. he was all talk (or not but you know what i mean).
so then i tried to get away, but he wouldnt leave me alone. i didnt want to be seen riding with him. i finally lost him but guess what diary? i'd already given him my digits!!
so later, i'm hot tubbing and he calls and wants to kick it. i was torn. i mean on one hand, he's a total wannabe, but on the other hand he's so hot. whatever. in the end, he said one of his friends worked at this bar and would get me in, even though i'm not 19. i couldnt pass that up, duh, so i went with him.
i didn't even get that drunk. like a few shots. like 3 shots max. i dont actually remember. anyway. hawk wanted me to go to the bathroom with him and "have some real fun", as he put it. so things went from there. i dont really feel like dishing all the deets right now. anyway, in the end some bitch that worked there found us and kicked me out for being underage. hawk didnt even walk me back to the condo. i slipped on the ice, and when i got back i tried to make some food and started a little fire in the kitchen. no biggie, seriously, but my parents went nuclear.
i just feel really empty and used right now, but c'est la vie right?
i really need some guidance right now. tonight's been an emotional roller coaster. its a long story, so i'll try to make it short.
it all started this morning up on blackcomb (im at my condo in whistler right now, in case you didnt know). i was stuck in the flats when this fat bitch on skiis didnt know what the eff she was doing and crashed right into me. i was thinking about what a noob i looked like when a young brad pitt rode up and started helping me (im kidding about the brad pitt thing, but trust me he was hot). anyway, we rode together for awhile and talked. he didnt have much to say, but i had plenty. hes just the strong silent type. his name is hawk, by the way. i dont really know how to spell that, i'm pretty sure he's armenian. anyway, we got to the park and as it turns out, he cant even do a full 360. off anything. i'm pretty sure he couldnt even do it on the ground. he was all talk (or not but you know what i mean).
so then i tried to get away, but he wouldnt leave me alone. i didnt want to be seen riding with him. i finally lost him but guess what diary? i'd already given him my digits!!
so later, i'm hot tubbing and he calls and wants to kick it. i was torn. i mean on one hand, he's a total wannabe, but on the other hand he's so hot. whatever. in the end, he said one of his friends worked at this bar and would get me in, even though i'm not 19. i couldnt pass that up, duh, so i went with him.
i didn't even get that drunk. like a few shots. like 3 shots max. i dont actually remember. anyway. hawk wanted me to go to the bathroom with him and "have some real fun", as he put it. so things went from there. i dont really feel like dishing all the deets right now. anyway, in the end some bitch that worked there found us and kicked me out for being underage. hawk didnt even walk me back to the condo. i slipped on the ice, and when i got back i tried to make some food and started a little fire in the kitchen. no biggie, seriously, but my parents went nuclear.
i just feel really empty and used right now, but c'est la vie right?
everything i'm not
dear diary,
so as i was saying, louisa's pregnant. i'm shocked, really i am. i thought that was the kind of thing that happened on made for tv movies, i never dreamed it would happen to one of my friends. poor lou, she is such a whore sometimes.
its unclear who the father is. it was definitely either that austrian guy, or danny. im betting on the austrian. but i wont lie diary, im a little jealous of her and danny. i mean i've definitely been crushing on him since shaun introduced us. but i shouldnt be jealous, its not good for my emotional well-being. louisa deserves a good guy.
i'm pretty sure it was the austrian. he's such a skeeze, theres no way he used a condom. either way, you know there's about to be some baby mama drama.
thats all for now diary.
xoxo, flora
so as i was saying, louisa's pregnant. i'm shocked, really i am. i thought that was the kind of thing that happened on made for tv movies, i never dreamed it would happen to one of my friends. poor lou, she is such a whore sometimes.
its unclear who the father is. it was definitely either that austrian guy, or danny. im betting on the austrian. but i wont lie diary, im a little jealous of her and danny. i mean i've definitely been crushing on him since shaun introduced us. but i shouldnt be jealous, its not good for my emotional well-being. louisa deserves a good guy.
i'm pretty sure it was the austrian. he's such a skeeze, theres no way he used a condom. either way, you know there's about to be some baby mama drama.
thats all for now diary.
xoxo, flora
juicy
dear diary,
shaun called steph last night. she told me all about it, like bragging or whatever. what a bitch. whatever, im over it. he can go to alaska by himself. steph and i are spending midwinter break in hawaii, and you know theres gonna be tons of hotties. ryan's going to be there and he's got all the hookups. he said he'd introduce us to kelly slater. last time i saw him on espn he was looking pretty good so i guess we'll see where that goes.
im really having some trouble with my grades lately. my parents are going apeshit cause im failing my core classes. its not my fault im too busy to do homework. if my mom had half the stuff going on in her life that i have, she'd understand.
im considering dropping out at the end of the year and going to live with benji and joel. they havent been the best role models, but at this point who cares?
i'm just a kid. and my life is a nightmare.
xoxo, flora
ps. louisa's pregnant!
shaun called steph last night. she told me all about it, like bragging or whatever. what a bitch. whatever, im over it. he can go to alaska by himself. steph and i are spending midwinter break in hawaii, and you know theres gonna be tons of hotties. ryan's going to be there and he's got all the hookups. he said he'd introduce us to kelly slater. last time i saw him on espn he was looking pretty good so i guess we'll see where that goes.
im really having some trouble with my grades lately. my parents are going apeshit cause im failing my core classes. its not my fault im too busy to do homework. if my mom had half the stuff going on in her life that i have, she'd understand.
im considering dropping out at the end of the year and going to live with benji and joel. they havent been the best role models, but at this point who cares?
i'm just a kid. and my life is a nightmare.
xoxo, flora
ps. louisa's pregnant!
no scrubs
dear diary,
i've had so many personal revelations lately. eli saw me hooking up with ryan on his show and dumped me. is it wrong that i'm ok with it? steph CANNOT know about this, but im starting to develop feelings for shaun, and i think he feels the same. he's liked me for years. its just that he's building an igloo for us to stay in in alaska, and i know shits gonna go down...
yours truly,
flora
i've had so many personal revelations lately. eli saw me hooking up with ryan on his show and dumped me. is it wrong that i'm ok with it? steph CANNOT know about this, but im starting to develop feelings for shaun, and i think he feels the same. he's liked me for years. its just that he's building an igloo for us to stay in in alaska, and i know shits gonna go down...
yours truly,
flora
true affection
dear diary,
some really personal shit happened over the weekend and i really just need to let it out.
eli led his team to victory and i was so happy. tom called before the game to talk. i didnt have the heart to tell him, but i think he suspects that im with eli now. that probably explains why he didnt play as well as he could have. i felt bad rooting for the giants but anything i had with tom is a thing of the past. he just needs to accept that. besides, what girl doesnt want to be able to say she's dating the superbowl mvp?
in other news, shaun told me he's going to start talking to steph again. i just hope she doesnt break his heart like last time. i mean he's not the best looking guy around, but when it comes down to it, does that really matter? he's no tom brady, but it doesnt mean he's any less good in bed, and i know that for a fact.
speaking of shaun, he was supposed to shred with lou, steph and i at stevens, but he was up in whistler or some shit and couldnt make it down. we met these hotties on the lift who took us to an after party at some lodge. louisa got really drunk and hooked up with this austrian guy who wants to get to pro status, like thats gonna happen. he tried to do a 1080 off the roof and bit it so hard. totally not impressive, but i guess lou was too zonked to know the difference.
more later,
flora
some really personal shit happened over the weekend and i really just need to let it out.
eli led his team to victory and i was so happy. tom called before the game to talk. i didnt have the heart to tell him, but i think he suspects that im with eli now. that probably explains why he didnt play as well as he could have. i felt bad rooting for the giants but anything i had with tom is a thing of the past. he just needs to accept that. besides, what girl doesnt want to be able to say she's dating the superbowl mvp?
in other news, shaun told me he's going to start talking to steph again. i just hope she doesnt break his heart like last time. i mean he's not the best looking guy around, but when it comes down to it, does that really matter? he's no tom brady, but it doesnt mean he's any less good in bed, and i know that for a fact.
speaking of shaun, he was supposed to shred with lou, steph and i at stevens, but he was up in whistler or some shit and couldnt make it down. we met these hotties on the lift who took us to an after party at some lodge. louisa got really drunk and hooked up with this austrian guy who wants to get to pro status, like thats gonna happen. he tried to do a 1080 off the roof and bit it so hard. totally not impressive, but i guess lou was too zonked to know the difference.
more later,
flora
ciega sordomuda
dear diary,
what the fuck. today is the most effed up day in the history of the planet. dr casey found me and steph smoking in the bathroom so she put the whole school in lockdown. total bullshit. im not trying to stay in class all day.
my mom was being a total freak last night. just about dumb shit like cleaning my room, and getting arrested last week. like i was supposed to know you can't skate in the fountain at seattle center.
speaking of that, shaun called yesterday and wanted to go skating. i said thanks but no thanks. don't get me wrong, i respect the man for what he's done but when it comes to skating he just isnt on my level. i told him i watched him on winter x and he should just stick to the snow.
i hope mr hawk doesnt read this.
what the fuck. today is the most effed up day in the history of the planet. dr casey found me and steph smoking in the bathroom so she put the whole school in lockdown. total bullshit. im not trying to stay in class all day.
my mom was being a total freak last night. just about dumb shit like cleaning my room, and getting arrested last week. like i was supposed to know you can't skate in the fountain at seattle center.
speaking of that, shaun called yesterday and wanted to go skating. i said thanks but no thanks. don't get me wrong, i respect the man for what he's done but when it comes to skating he just isnt on my level. i told him i watched him on winter x and he should just stick to the snow.
i hope mr hawk doesnt read this.
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